today, we didn't text much too. what can i say? i wanted to text you so badly bt idk what can we talk abt. probably this is what others say, ran out of topics? i remember saying that we would figure is out somehow when the time comes, bt it seems much more difficult. i keep asking my friend, eh what can we talk about? and he said, i thought you normally got alot of things to talk one? why now nth to say uh? . OKAY, i guess i hid a part of me when we became friends. bt i really want us to return to the past us, where we used to chat for long hours. i enjoyed having your company girl, i really do. bt now, somehow i m lost. can i really keep my stance as a friend? i want to stand by your side and watch you, care for you and do whatever i can for you bt idk what stopping me from doing it. can i take a step closer to you and yet still stay as friend? tsk this is a problematic question. i was hoping to strike a conversation with you, bt seems like its not working. didn't i tell you that i would disappear (no talking no texting) once in a while when we are friends? i did didn't i? thats just me. :( a bad habit, espically when i don't feeling like telling my friends anything. not that i m not contacting them, just want to be with myself for a little while. :( i miss you girl. your stupid boy is still waiting. i guess i m just being stubborn. oh well. i think this is just me, the saddness in me.
alright, abt today, i met up with some of my secondary sch friends. it been like 3 years since we met up, basically cos they did not go for the class reunion. we crap alot. just like the good old school days. i realised that they didn't change bt yeow and i changed alot. probably the people we mix ard with and circumstances made us such change in such a way? bt then, all the childishness came back with them, the feeling of "freedom", i shall describe it this way cos we are basically relaxed and its really great to see these familiar faces.we eat, watch movie, eat and eat. LOL, FAT LO. i guess next week NAPFA i cmi alrdy la..HAHAHA. Additional 2 mth jiu 2 mths lo. CHEY! i also bo bian right, cos my muscles comaplain its tired. prcp coming right! ah ya! tired dao....no time to train! AH HA!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
ai ni. li kai ni
枫呢喃的轻拂窗口
像爱情也只是稍事停留
风很轻 思念却很透明
怎奈穿越不了爱情
缓慢的妆流过伤口
晕开了我给不起的温柔
那一夜我们紧紧相拥
终于说出口已经不爱我
爱你所以离开你
眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景 剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆
为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
幸福的回音南拳妈妈
缓慢的妆流过伤口
晕开了我给不起的温柔
那一夜我们紧紧相拥
终于说出口已经不爱我
爱你所以离开你 眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景 剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆
为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
你幸福的回音
爱你所以离开你 眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景
剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
你幸福的回音
枫呢喃的轻拂窗口
像爱情也只是稍事停留
风很轻 思念却很透明
怎奈穿越不了爱情
缓慢的妆流过伤口
晕开了我给不起的温柔
那一夜我们紧紧相拥
终于说出口已经不爱我
爱你所以离开你
眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景 剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆
为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
幸福的回音南拳妈妈
缓慢的妆流过伤口
晕开了我给不起的温柔
那一夜我们紧紧相拥
终于说出口已经不爱我
爱你所以离开你 眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景 剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆
为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
你幸福的回音
爱你所以离开你 眼泪是回忆就让他随风去
我们走过的风景
剩下了飘零漂泊的名叫伤心
爱你所以离开你
爱放进行李流浪我的记忆为你我愿意变成云
跟着风去旅行再静静的聆听
你幸福的回音
hais.
Dear blog,
today didn't really msged hui shan. like the first time i ever did that.
tsk, so hand itchy, went to msged her. i know she was outside, with a guy who liked her before, and of cos with a click and she had no interest in that guy but, i still don like it. its like jealous eh? oh dammit. i crossed the line again. i wasn't angry but was kinda sad. i wanted to tell her that, that after this week i won't be free to meet her anymore.i wanted to see her so badly, so so badly. perhaps its just me. i know she would stick to her desicion, bt still, i still bear hopes of being with her. thats how silly i am. :( i m still striving hard to get her a nice brithday present. bt she didn't want it bascially cos she knows or cn feel how tired i am. i totally understand that but do you know, its also motivation? its been long since i wanted to save so badly buying something for someone special. sorry that i m being stubborn. i know you meant well. i really do.! i wanna say "i miss you!" so much, so so much and actually its been long since we met. (we only met on the 3/9 and 4/9 of this mth.) :(
i will try not to cross the line too girl, i will try, if you cn keep it in a compartment in ur heart, then i think i could too. i think, i can. bt nevertheless, i still feel very sad. :( its terrible.! ARGH! i need to stop feeling this way. i was just wondering, if i change would i feel better? hmmm..
lastly, i can't slp since i told you lets be friends. WHAT TO DO!? fml.
today didn't really msged hui shan. like the first time i ever did that.
tsk, so hand itchy, went to msged her. i know she was outside, with a guy who liked her before, and of cos with a click and she had no interest in that guy but, i still don like it. its like jealous eh? oh dammit. i crossed the line again. i wasn't angry but was kinda sad. i wanted to tell her that, that after this week i won't be free to meet her anymore.i wanted to see her so badly, so so badly. perhaps its just me. i know she would stick to her desicion, bt still, i still bear hopes of being with her. thats how silly i am. :( i m still striving hard to get her a nice brithday present. bt she didn't want it bascially cos she knows or cn feel how tired i am. i totally understand that but do you know, its also motivation? its been long since i wanted to save so badly buying something for someone special. sorry that i m being stubborn. i know you meant well. i really do.! i wanna say "i miss you!" so much, so so much and actually its been long since we met. (we only met on the 3/9 and 4/9 of this mth.) :(
i will try not to cross the line too girl, i will try, if you cn keep it in a compartment in ur heart, then i think i could too. i think, i can. bt nevertheless, i still feel very sad. :( its terrible.! ARGH! i need to stop feeling this way. i was just wondering, if i change would i feel better? hmmm..
lastly, i can't slp since i told you lets be friends. WHAT TO DO!? fml.
Monday, September 6, 2010
3rd day insomia
Dear blog,
i guess i did it again. i made her upset again.my bad
i feigned ignorance to your feeling though i know.i am sorry.!i really am.!
i didn't know what to do. i can neither stay nor leave. crap, what am i thinking anw.-.-
wanted to message her early in the morning but idk what i should tell her...ARGH!
silly girl msged me in the end bt idk what to reply. i was looking at the phone the whole day, eat i stare, work i stare, go toliet i stare. bt i can't get the right stuff to write. tsk, she gonna get upset again. hais.!
i am no good. definately no good, i thought i m better bt in the end i was just some half assed shit. FML.
i guess i did it again. i made her upset again.my bad
i feigned ignorance to your feeling though i know.i am sorry.!i really am.!
i didn't know what to do. i can neither stay nor leave. crap, what am i thinking anw.-.-
wanted to message her early in the morning but idk what i should tell her...ARGH!
silly girl msged me in the end bt idk what to reply. i was looking at the phone the whole day, eat i stare, work i stare, go toliet i stare. bt i can't get the right stuff to write. tsk, she gonna get upset again. hais.!
i am no good. definately no good, i thought i m better bt in the end i was just some half assed shit. FML.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
conclusion
idk...i think i gotta go..
AIM:
-back to the start before bt i know i can't.
-get more booze
-graduate
-be a radish (LOL, its time to enjoy eh? meh.)
bye bye..and i appologise.
AIM:
-back to the start before bt i know i can't.
-get more booze
-graduate
-be a radish (LOL, its time to enjoy eh? meh.)
bye bye..and i appologise.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
wasted
wasted 1 whole day slping away...-.-
what am i doing...crap..
back to revisions and fyp...heh..-.-
i think imy..hmmm..
what am i doing...crap..
back to revisions and fyp...heh..-.-
i think imy..hmmm..
Monday, May 24, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
WA KAO EH! my first paper so hard lo...like i study for nth sia...wtf..-.-
waste my time...si pharmacology paper ...ms jo set until so hard lo...
i don even know how to calculate insulin...i see le i stun...so write bullshit ans...=X well...you can't blame me...i didn't learn...=( hope i pass this moledule...ARGH!
waste my time...si pharmacology paper ...ms jo set until so hard lo...
i don even know how to calculate insulin...i see le i stun...so write bullshit ans...=X well...you can't blame me...i didn't learn...=( hope i pass this moledule...ARGH!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
okay i just had my jab yesterday (2 on my left and 1 on my right). and it still hurts. i was told about the side effects of the vaccines, basically just low grade fever so i went to work without brothering abt it. bt i see ppl ard me taking paracetamol. -.- i was feeling tired, so i decided to get a drink from 7-eleven, i bought a blackcurrent volka (alcohol 8.4%), felt it tated abit like grape juice or sth and drank it up like plain water. well...i got abit tipsy after that.haha..at least i need not think of sth before i sleep. just like that.
Being quiet doesn't mean i doesn't know wads going on...-.-
Being quiet doesn't mean i doesn't know wads going on...-.-
Friday, January 1, 2010
:)
first time to a bar ytd esp to celebrate a friend birthday..:)
first time going to clarke quay...
first time kena spray foams...
so mani first time....LOL...
had some difficulty finding the place as the even the securities are giving me wrong directions...-.- took me like 1 hour...? they just told me to walk straight...and i was like eh? the prv security guard told me to walk straight down and now you are telling me to walk straight up again? =O
i wonder if i would go there again..hmmm...it was so hot and ppl were pushing...(i hated being pushed) overcrowded i guess probably cos its new year eve? haha...anw...i managed to find my way there...after wondering around here and there....phew! at least i made it in time..=D
Idk whether cos its the eve or what, attachment in the hospital is super busy...! i was like running ard the ward for the whole day? and when i cn rest a bit i had to go down and buy food for pt...cos nurse forget to order so ask me buy porridge...-.- go down le then no more porridge...=O go back up again then tell nurse, she say go buy chicken rice then, with the soup...so i went back down and told the bought the order...this time kena scolded by the hawker vendor...cos i asked for the soup (my pt doesn't have much teeth you see) ....-.- buy from you, you still scold me...not i eat one eh!!=( so by the time i rushed back up, its time for turning and changing...-.- and i had to do it alone, for my EN was bz with sth and my friends r kinda busy, fortunately my pt cn help abit...:) bt v v tired le..
haha...as the matter of fact, i was really tired...so so tired...esp after first drink...forget its abit strong, and with me dehydrating, i drank a few mouthful when the drink came...which made me more tired...HAHA...cn ta han de...! mentally >=) bt physically tired... nvm...TA HAN...! i told myself...=) its jeannette's birthday and so mani ppl ard...and with new year coming i will stay awake!!!! haha...i get to see wad i wanted to see...=D (i guess only she knows)
saw my buddies and had to drink with them again...=O okay...i am not walking straight after that seriously, gonna b drunk i know...cos i m starting to feel the hotness...though its after being sprayed foam by strangers while go to them...-.- crazy de...ppl walk pass they spray....so when me and my frien walked out, we were like snowmans just that we had white patch all over and not totally white...-.- it was fun seeing them there...=) my sec sch friends, so long nvr see them le...
so ya...i reached home ard 3 plus? quite late uh...haha...jeannette was right...xD the mrt was crowded with ppl lor..! =O ouh ya..when i got home the best part is here...my bag which had chocolate(given by CI) inside melted and it dirted my whole bag...nice new year....first thing i had to do when i reach home is to wash my bag...didn't know it until i searched for my keys and felt the melted chocolate on my keys and stuff...-.- the feeling was thick and oily...argh! and went to slp at 4 plus...haha...=D
thank you so much for such a memorable new year...=)
next yr again ah?
haha...^^
first time going to clarke quay...
first time kena spray foams...
so mani first time....LOL...
had some difficulty finding the place as the even the securities are giving me wrong directions...-.- took me like 1 hour...? they just told me to walk straight...and i was like eh? the prv security guard told me to walk straight down and now you are telling me to walk straight up again? =O
i wonder if i would go there again..hmmm...it was so hot and ppl were pushing...(i hated being pushed) overcrowded i guess probably cos its new year eve? haha...anw...i managed to find my way there...after wondering around here and there....phew! at least i made it in time..=D
Idk whether cos its the eve or what, attachment in the hospital is super busy...! i was like running ard the ward for the whole day? and when i cn rest a bit i had to go down and buy food for pt...cos nurse forget to order so ask me buy porridge...-.- go down le then no more porridge...=O go back up again then tell nurse, she say go buy chicken rice then, with the soup...so i went back down and told the bought the order...this time kena scolded by the hawker vendor...cos i asked for the soup (my pt doesn't have much teeth you see) ....-.- buy from you, you still scold me...not i eat one eh!!=( so by the time i rushed back up, its time for turning and changing...-.- and i had to do it alone, for my EN was bz with sth and my friends r kinda busy, fortunately my pt cn help abit...:) bt v v tired le..
haha...as the matter of fact, i was really tired...so so tired...esp after first drink...forget its abit strong, and with me dehydrating, i drank a few mouthful when the drink came...which made me more tired...HAHA...cn ta han de...! mentally >=) bt physically tired... nvm...TA HAN...! i told myself...=) its jeannette's birthday and so mani ppl ard...and with new year coming i will stay awake!!!! haha...i get to see wad i wanted to see...=D (i guess only she knows)
saw my buddies and had to drink with them again...=O okay...i am not walking straight after that seriously, gonna b drunk i know...cos i m starting to feel the hotness...though its after being sprayed foam by strangers while go to them...-.- crazy de...ppl walk pass they spray....so when me and my frien walked out, we were like snowmans just that we had white patch all over and not totally white...-.- it was fun seeing them there...=) my sec sch friends, so long nvr see them le...
so ya...i reached home ard 3 plus? quite late uh...haha...jeannette was right...xD the mrt was crowded with ppl lor..! =O ouh ya..when i got home the best part is here...my bag which had chocolate(given by CI) inside melted and it dirted my whole bag...nice new year....first thing i had to do when i reach home is to wash my bag...didn't know it until i searched for my keys and felt the melted chocolate on my keys and stuff...-.- the feeling was thick and oily...argh! and went to slp at 4 plus...haha...=D
thank you so much for such a memorable new year...=)
next yr again ah?
haha...^^
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